BLOOD OR WATER?

Well, we all know the saying, "Blood is thicker than water."  I have lived by this statement my whole life.  Anytime a family member has been hurting or in need, I have always made sure to come to the side of blood.  Recently I have discovered that I have been living a fantasy believing this statement held truth.  I have found that in my most trying times only true friends have really been there, not in front or behind, but right beside me holding my hand and supporting me as I journey through life.  Blood has finally shown me that there are choices in life, and sometimes blood chooses water.  When blood chooses water, what are we to do, choose water too!!  My most supportive and loving friends have proven yet again that the only difference between blood and water is the amount of love one pours out of them.  This may come across as an angry rant, but after what I have been through this is more than that.  This is me taking a stand for myself and my children.  I have endured bigotry in its worst form.  This bigotry has caused blood to make a chioce, and that choice was to turn away from me and my children.  Don't get me wrong, you know me well enough from my writing to know this doesn't bother me that they turned away from me.  What bothers me is that my children have had to witness and endure this bigotry.  This bigotry has come from one person and his hatred of my lifestyle has allowed him to turn my blood away from me.  My own blood has chosen to give in to his increasing demands to avoid me, and to turn away from my children. My children are very intelligent and they are well aware what is going on.   They have much supportive "water" in their lives and they will be fine.  No one can kiss away the pain, no one can put a band aid on this wound, but the love of true friends sure can make things bearable.  I love my family, I love my friends.  Blood may be thicker than water, but when it comes to lifes difficult and trying times, water is what will get me through.  Thanks to all the WATER in my life, I am blessed.

MY FOREVER LOVE

As long as the stars will shine

I know that you will always be mine

You were sent to me from above

You will be my Forever Love

As long as the rivers meet the sea

You will be the one for me

You were sent to me from above

You will be my Forever Love

As long as birds continue to fly

We'll be together, you and I

You were sent to me from above

You will be my Forever Love

As long as this world continues to turn

The flames of love will continue to burn

You were sent to me from above

You will be my Forever Love

As long as my heart continues to beat

It's because of you my life is complete

I will never stop this love that I feel

You have come and made it all real

As long as I have you by my side

This love will be an amazing ride

You were sent to me from above

You will be my Forever LOVE!

END OF A LOVE AFFAIR

Yes, you read that correctly.  It is time to close the foor on this chapter and bring this love affair to an end.  As much as I had hoped that it could be long term, I cannot continue the facade that everything is great.  It is time to say a warm and loving goodbye to this city I have called home for the past year and three months.  Yes, my love affair with Indy is over.  The long daily commute, the increasing crime, and horrid road construction areas have made it necessary for me to seek shelter in a safer and more loveing environment.

They say you can't go home, but they are wrong.  I am returning to Trafalgar and will be settling in back out on Spearsville Road for a while.  While I had hoped to stay in the city, I have finally accepted the truth that the best situation for myself and others involved is to leave and return to small town country living. 

I am a bit scared of making the move back "home".  Scared because I will be returning as the me who has become less than secretive and very open about my life.  Scared because I will be moving farther away from my children and the convenience of being able to get to them and their activities easily.  Frightened because moving back will also mean moving farther away from the love of my life and all that we have started to build.  I have known fear before, and I know I can overcome, but I will need help from my loving family and all my wonderfully supportive friends.

Along with the fear involved in relocating back "home", also comes the piece of mind that I will be back to being close to my parents, granny, and work.  I will be saving financially, and preparing myself for the next chapter and looking to see all that life has in store for me as one chapter ends and the new begins.