RIDING ROLLER COASTERS

To say my life has been up and down lately would be slightly inaccurate.  My life has been more like a daily roller coaster ride.  You know that feeling of excitement and anticipation as you ride along approaching the climb, the way your heart beats with the thrill of prediction for what lies ahead.  I have felt that way many times in the past few months.  I have anticipated the excitement of true love and all that it offers.  I have watched with anxious thoughts as the climb approached each day.  Awaiting for the unknown has always been difficult for me, and this ride of life is no different.

As the climb began and the hill seemed to steep to ride, I started to fear the unknown fall as the roller coaster progressed.  Somewhere during this stage of the ride of life, I became content to stay stalled on the climb and the comfort of being in love started to cause major complications for the journey ahead.  I became comfortable in every aspect of my life and never realized I was losing the most important parts of myself.  Once I finally realized what was happening, I feared it was too late, and rushed to catch up on the ride.

The downward spiral that lie ahead was the most excruciating and painful part of the ride.  As the anxiety of losing it all built and the climb came to a halt, I saw the downward spiral and had no way of knowing how to keep myself from crashing.  I became an emotional wreck.  I tried crying, screaming, and fighting for everything I believed in. none of it seems to have worked.  The descending ride became the roughest of my life, and I continue to wait for the final safe ride back to the station.  I hope and pray each day for the ride to end as it began, with true love and partnership to last forever.  As I ride life's roller coaster, I fear each day that I will stall on the climb, and crash on the descending ride.

Roller coasters are fun entertainment, until the roller coaster of life catches you off guard and you have to struggle to stay on board.  Love is definitely like this for me these days, as I try to figure out each day's ride and how to hold on so that nothing is lost.  I try to hold onto everything and everyone important to me and sometimes this pushes things further from my grasp.  I truly believe in the power of love and hope the roller coaster will slow down just enough to allow me to keep it alive.

POEMS JUST FOR HIM

Lately I have written a few new poems just for the one I love, and re-read a couple of old ones..  I have decided I need to share them more widely to prove how real and true my love is for him.  I will love him til the end of my days.  I know he loves me and always will.  We are bound by hearts that cannot let one another go, and that is what keeps me going, knowing one day we will return to the love we once had, as 3 years together means more than others may ever understand. 2-10-2011 will forever be!

ALL I EVER WANTED

I’m not sure just what I should do
All I ever wanted in this life was you

I read old messages that you sent
I see the heartfelt love that you meant

My eyes fill with tears of joy, not sadness
I hope some day we will get through all the madness

My world has crashed at the loss of you
For you my love has only been true

Our life together was supposed to last
I can forget all the pain and hurt of the past

We are destined by fate for love to survive
I will love you completely until I’m no longer alive

My love your you is as true as can be
I only wish you would return to loving me

You are the dearest one to my heart
Our life together was a work of true art

As I think of everything I love about you
I can’t help but dream of all we can do

Together we were the envy of all
There are those who cherished our very fall

Let’s show the world we are still strong
Let’s prove that it is together we belong

Always know that its you that I desire
My passion for you burns like a fire

I don’t care what has happened, or what’s in the past
I know we can find a way to make our love last

My love for you is stronger each day
Even when without you I must stay.

I will love you forever until the day I die
Rick Allen Crisp II you’re the apple of my eye.

I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER!

I LOVE...

Everything about you and everything you do.

I love the way you hold my hand while driving

I love every tender kiss

I love the way you smell and the way you style your hair.

I love your manly ego and the loving way you care

I love your sense of style and the closet full of clothes

I love the way you smile and the way your kindness shows.

I love the way you hold me close and cuddle me to sleep.

I love the way you look at me when you have something to say.

I love when you call me baby just because you can.

I love that you love me and are never going to leave

I love everything about you and everything you do.

RICK ALLEN CRISP II, I will love these things and many more until the day I visit heavens door. You are my world, my life, my every thing. I LOVE YOU♥

WHAT IS LOVE?

Love is. . .

Music and laughter, stars, moon, and sun,

Everything beautiful made into one,

Sharing and caring, endlessly giving,

Love, in itself, is the reason for living.


It's not easy to put into words the way I feel about you.
All I can say is that the world somehow feels totally right when we are holding each other, and that I somehow feel like a better person when you look into my eyes.
You're the best part of my life, and I love you very much!!

 OUR LOVE

Our Love is that which knows no end
The kind you share with your best friend
The kind of love that stands all time
That's the love that's yours and mine

Our Love is that which others envy
The kind they know true love can be
The kind of love that lasts forever
That's the love that will end never

Our Love is that which was sent by fate
The kind that those who can't have, hate
The kind of love that knows no bounds
That's our love from heaven to the grounds

Our Love is that which soulmates share
The kind that grows with loving care
The kind of love that is forever true
That's the love between me and you.

Our Love is that which knows no end
The kind you share with your best friend
The kind of love that stands all time
That's the love that's yours and mine

PDA + RAC = Always and Forever